Not ur AveraGe ThUg

2009-07-26T03:01:00.000+08:00

I just found out that..the woman whom i tot i loved..broke up with the man she tot she love..i have no idea what went wrong..she seems to be upset for the breakup. I wonder what so great bout that son of the father..when she doesnt give a shit bout me.she rather give someone a chance to hurt her than to hurt someone who wouldnt think bout harming her. Anyway its all over..learn not to treat someone as ur priority when you are only an option. Why give up on the whole forest for merely a tree? I rather have someone who accept me for who i am than someone who may swept me off the ground..but dun give a shit bout of

2009-07-26T02:48:00.000+08:00

Its so hard to fall asleep sometimes..i wonder why. Im using my handphone to update my blog, thanks to wi fi..how cool is that? Lying on the bed..joting down my tots and feelings. Anyhow, it was lifeless saturday..i went for the croupier interview this morning..i think i din really fair well..but they seems desperate for numbers..maybe they take me? Anyhow i went home n took a short nap before goin to darren house for his baby first month gathering. And guess what..i stay at home the whole night..mind u its saturday night..just didnt have the mood to go out.My life is in a mess..i think its time to do something.

2009-07-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

Megan

I also understand that with the beauty of this life there comes pain and despair. No one is immune. But consider what you have in your hands before you give it up. Don’t trade a treasure for an empty box.– Forever Knight

2009-05-18T23:50:00.002+08:00

Just came back from thailand and i cant help but to jot down my thoughts and feeling during my short stay in thailand with my group of friends.

Tot of writing downs all the details right from the first day..but i jus dunno where to start.

Anyhow..its really fun travelling with ur groups of friends..especially those u mix with all the time..so much fun together..who cares if pple think we some juvenlie young pple making losta noise but we have so much laughter doing weird n outrageous stuff.

it seems crazy but we party everynight..its all bout booze..lots of booze..RCA..girls. in case you do not know what the hell is RCA..its actually place where they are a handful clubs..a fav hunt for tourist like us..and young pple in thailand.

lots of mix feelings actually..during and after the trips.anyhow..its good to experience emotions like this..helps u think better..u gotta go with ur feelings n just do it...maybe u realise wad u really want might be wad u dun reallhy need..and maybe wad u really dun want might be what u are looking for.im talk crap for christ sake.

oh went watch Angel and demon with ivan and mingling..quite a nice show..althou i dun even know much bout vactican history and stuff but hey..i do enjoy the show..their history is so fasinating and the story actually talk alot bout religion and stuff and i quite like it. people are questioning god existence every single day. Maybe scientist can oneday prove that there is no god..but why should be care..the truth hurts..din we have fun..aint we happy enuff..why question on stuff that doesn't even matter, just be happy..be loved..be compassionate..have fun..thats all we need

anyhow..good to go..feeling tired...one hell of struggle ahead..make of break

alot like love

2009-02-24T18:26:00.004+08:00

Isn't she lovely?

Alot like love was nice! Ashton kutcher and amanda peet..she's really gorgeous. The show was hilarious..a bit of sweetness..and makes u feel so good..lots of twist and turn..but thank god they got together..if not i have to kill the director.

Friendship has been put to a test..anyhow..come what may..nothing i can do but learn to deal. And hopefully no more drinking..i like it but its time to stop.

fsdfsd

2009-02-22T22:52:00.004+08:00

Hasn't been blogging, well im back. I just pass all my module..which means i can finally obtain my diploma cert. I should be happy..but i wasn't..i know i could have completed earlier..anyway..fuck it.

Has been doing all the " wrong " things for the past few weeks. Anyhow this is a very private posting. So please dun read it..its a confession of a teenage trouble queen.lol

I took a stick last week, which i shouldn't have..it taste like heaven. Last night, i took another 3 stick..yes i am fucking guilty, but it was shiok man. The temptation did not left me at all.Times n times i resisted.Anyhow..i shall try to keep control my urge.

Speaking of urge, my sexual urge was pretty high this few weeks..in fact all the while it was there..(i have HSD)..it din help for the places i go..where temptation was all time high..i let my animal instinct ovverule me. Althou there wasn't any real activity gg on..i felted guilty for some reason.the ironic part is that i have no one but myself to account for what i have done..perhaps it got to do with my faith..but then again..being a pretty liberal human being..i do understand that im just being a man..having a humanly urge but i feel bad.

Maybe i should be playing the devil adovcate..im just being alive..there's no right or wrong and i shouldn't be judging myself..Life is short..we should be happy and at the same time "enjoy" life..haha..it aint easy to be a man.Alright..i hugged a woman last night..my hands was all over her body..she kept pushin me away..she played with my hands..i shall stop elaborating.Full stop

A man is just like an animal, the only thing that separate a man from an animal..is value.
Find that man, it just wasn't me.

Something to cheer..i always pondered over my sexuality..my doubt was over : )

2009-02-01T22:58:00.004+08:00

Chingay is finally over!

After months of commitment..dragging myself for the meeting, together with my remodule and driving. Everything is finally over. I have no idea how did i fare but i dun feel good at all, perhaps its becos i din work hard enuff. But i definitely gain more than i lose.

Chingay was an eye opener, should have taken pictures of those performers.there were all kinds of costumes with striking colours,thats comes in different designs. Anyway, being a trainer for 1st time..it was definitely a good exposure for me althou i din do particularly well.

Today was the first time i organise a reunion dinner with my friends, i think it turn up fine..all thanks to my mom who prepare all the food.

Anyhow..after all that has been said and done.. i experience some mix feelings..a part of me felt empty, i cant be sure why i felted this way..i mean..i should be feeling good..technically.

As for my dear vanggie, i dunno what to do or say..just hope u be fine. I always know things like that will happened..becos nothing will turn up smoothly..becos u cannot take things for granted. You must learn ways to take care urself..in such a way that nobody can affect you becos you are prepared and u stand firm...and that u need nobody but urself to live the life that u want and be truly happy. I have no idea what the hell am i saying but if you happen to read this...learn to forgive and forget..whatever the outcome is. Because it takes a great man to forgive and a little man to point his finger to the man with his fault. : )

2009-01-28T08:21:00.003+08:00

KATY PERRY

Finally updated. Hi all..this is katy perry.

Shes absolutely gorgeous and she has nice rack!

Anyhow. Happy CNY. YJ is back again. Almost forgotton but not lost. This is where i jot down my thoughts and feelings. So strangers stay away.

Life is good, i wont say perfect. Future is bleak, sky is dark.but hope is not gone. New year new resolution.

1. Bungee

2.Travel

3. start a new career

4. start a new life

5. save money?

Its time for some reflection!

1. Stop being critical/cynic/judging people

2. Learn to listen/empathize/try to understand pple tots and feelings

3. *Anger Management

4. Expect lesser

5. stop being a smug/ haolian

6. becareful with words

7. Dun get affected by pple words.

8. Be nice

P.S

To the love of my life ms vanggie.

I have no idea if i became ur friend becos you are pretty.

Anyway we met.

Althou u are irritating sometimes

Althou u are not a very good conversationalist

Althou u are petty

Althou there are many things i dun like about you and dun wish to list all out becos its so tiring

But i still love you and i just want to say

MERCI

For everything. Je Ta'ime

Bon jour. Au Revoir. Mer

2008-12-25T18:22:00.003+08:00

Merry xmas everyone! Its xmas! We dun get to deck the hall, sing xmas carol or wadeva things the westerner did. But we get to spent moment with our friends that makes life so sweet.

Sometimes there are always some issue between you and ur peers..but i guess its pretty normal and all we need some nice sleep and eradicate all those bad moment and carry on moving forward together. Altough there are times you have expectations on how they should be and what they shouldn't be. But we all have our own life to live..guess wad..screw it.

New year is coming! Lets hope that 2009 will be another great year. A band new start for everyone else. Go live ur dreams, do what u wish to do, challenge what u are not good at. Live like theres no tml. Lift someone up when he's down. 6 more days to a brand new life!

2008-12-17T22:54:00.002+08:00

I hope my sister stop reading my blog, its nice when people are interested in what you write. But its not so nice when ur sister is doing it.

Quote of the day : I am not afraid of tomorrow, for i have seen yesterday and i love today.

Life is good, i have finally gotten over ( should have done it long time ago).. sometimes i do think about it..but i dun feel as bad as it used to be. And i have discover new meaning in life.

Its all in the mind. Life is all bout struggle, each time we triumph over adversity we encounter, we become stronger and tougher, and this is what life is all about.

There are always lesson to be learnt, looking back..im glad i tt i learnt many things within such a short period. It was a big leap..the transition was tough. It may seems nothing to others, it mean alot to me.

At the end of the day, i just wanna thank those people who stood by me during my darkest moment. I wanted to give all of them a hug, but its against our culture (cina). And i treasure every single relationship i have with pple around me, my family and my friends...r/s with people is what make us happy or unhappy. I will learn to be more graceful..more tolerence..understanding..and showing gratitude, especially my parent.I jus need more time.

2008-11-24T23:28:00.004+08:00

DON'T GIVE UP!

Beyonce: The heart is stronger than you think

It's like it can go through anything

And even when you think it can't it finds a way to still push on, though

Carrie: Sometimes you want to run away

Ain't got the patience for the pain

And if you don't believe it look into

Your heart the beat goes on

Rihanna: I'm tellin' you that

Things get better

Through whatever

If you fall, dust it off, don't let up

Sheryl: Don't you know you can go be your own miracle

Beyonce: You need to know

CHORUS

Sheryl: If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough

But the heart keeps telling you don't give up

Sheryl/Beyonce: Who are we to be

Questioning, wondering what is what

Don't give up

THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie: It's like we all have better days

Problems getting all up in your face

Leona: Just because you go through it

Fergie: Don't mean it got to take control, no

Leona: You ain't gotta find no hiding place

Keyshia: Because the heart can beat the hate

Leona: Don't wanna let your mind keep playin' you

Keyshia: And sayin' you can't go on

Rihanna: I'm tellin' you that

Miley: Things get better

Through whatever

Rihanna: If you fall

Miley: Dust if off, don't let up

LeAnn: Don't you know you

Natasha: Can go

LeAnn: Be your own

Natasha: Miracle

Carrie: You need to know

Ensemble: CHORUS

Mary: You don't gotta be a prisoner in your mind

Ciara: If you fall, dust it off

Mary: You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah

Mary: Let your heart be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah yeah yeah

Mariah: And you will know that you're good

if you trust in the good

Ashanti: Everything will be alright, yeah

Light up the dark, if you follow your heart

Mary: And it will get better

Mariah: Through whatever

CHORUS

Fergie: You got it in you, find it within

You got in now, find it within now

You got in you, find it within

You got in now, find it within now

You got in you, find it within

Find it within you, find it within

Everyone: THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Simply inspiring! Its awesome..dun u think so?

This is the kind of song that can lift u up a little no matter what comes in ur way.

So many stars crooning tgt.Rihanna, Mary J blige, Fergie, Leanne rimmes, Mariah Carey,Ashanti, Carrie Underwood, Ciara, Natasha bedingfield, Leona lewis, sheryl crow, Beyonce, and even Milkey cyrus (she's like 16 this yr,1992?)

Star-studded!

blog blog blog

2008-11-24T23:07:00.004+08:00

(Double click to enlarge)

I tot this was funny.

I shall be back to bloggin one day.

Has been really busy/tired/stressful/struggling and lots of mix feeling.

But i believe

one day i will get to enjoy the fruit of my labour.

Spring will always fall after winter!

Sunshine will always come after the rain!

2008-11-13T21:53:00.002+08:00

Home is where they have to take you in. Blog is where you start ranting! Damn..i should learn pray more and complain less!

I went to skool today ( MDIS). The whole freaking trip took like an hour. I went inside the classroom, took a seat..browse at my time table.. and then i realise that i shouldn't be in skool today. This is pure stupidity. Lesson of the day: always check ur timetable!

Anyhow, my schedule are pretty hectic now..still figuring out on how to manage my time..and my $. Feeling really tired, just hope that im on the freaking right track. At the end of the day, i want to taste the fruit of my labour, i mustn't give up.

'Winner is simple someone who do what a loser wont'

2008-10-07T18:25:00.002+08:00

Gonna be really really busy soon. Monday and Thursday night classes, tues and wed and sunday chingay rehearsal. I still have my practical lesson. I guess i gotta postpone my guitar.

The second part is dedicate to you Mich.

During the time i was really down, nothing could get into my head. All the advices and encouragment just couldn't lift me up. It was only after a period of time then i started the realise wad i was told, was right. I guess time really play a crucial part in healing ur god damn wound.

Anyway w/o having to go thru this, i guess i probably be still the same old person as i am, stagnanting, not doing anything productive..u know. But thank god ( im a buddhist, its just an saying), i took up faith and i decided to use this force( agony) or wadeva u call it...as a spring to push me forward to really change and doing the right thing.

Call it sour grape or wadever, sometimes love is really over rated. I have many friends who are attached but they dun seems to be alot happier or being different. Yes it would be really nice to have a special someone beside u. But half the time its not as special as u think it is. How many times i have seen couple quarreling over some little things such as choosing where to go? Half the time couple stay together is simply becos they do not have to courage to let go and find somebody better when they are not happy with each other after the honeymoon period is gone. They are afraid that they cant find some else better, which is not necessarliy true.

Love is not about holding each other back, but moving forwards together. No point being with someone who keep stopping u from doing wad u want when all that person want is u spending time with him/her.

I was single by choice, and the choice wasn't made by me. Time to move on mich, life is beautiful : )

2008-09-20T16:40:00.002+08:00

While i was reading reader digest today, i came across this quote given by george clooney.

My father gave me the best advice of my life.
He said, " Whatever you do, dont wake up at 65 years old and think
about what you should have done in your life. "

I have no idea why but i simply love reading quotes, especially good ones. A simple line can just brighten up my day.

Anyhow..i have just started my quit smoking campaign, it has been 11 days since i last smoke. Of course with the help of nicorette. MIND OVER BODY

Im at the cross road again. Damn..which way should i go?

2008-08-21T23:20:00.005+08:00

There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.

NDP is over.One helll of a experience.What can i say. A memorable experience? Well i cant simply write down a few lines to express my deep felt feelings to this exhilalerating and yet inspirating journey..its more than just words.

back street back

2008-08-09T00:09:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Hi. Its has been a long time since i last write to you. Im fine btw. Thanks for not asking. I went to join NDP recently and tml is my big day. Please wish me good luck. Let us all shine for singapore.

Oh and i took up faith too. I am still learning and struggling with what i have to do, maybe all i need is just a lil more effort and lil more time. Have been really really busy these days, gonna share with you someday.

oh ya mayoda, or rather yvonne, share with me her fav quote recently. " Life is beautiful, only the lyrics are messed up." : )

And as for me...well..i guess i am really fine now. I still have not changed..yet. Stubborn me. But i am still trying. So please turn the other cheek, i am still recuperating. And eh..i have alot of things needed to be done. Let us strive together huh. Challenge our limitation and achieve victory in life.

And as for her. We had a short conversation some time ago. She seems fine, having hell of a time with her new love. She din tell me bud i can sense it. And she seems to be forgotten about me. Yes i am disappointed and upset. But im not as affected as before.

Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. Life is like that. Smile : )

the calling

2008-06-17T23:33:00.004+08:00

Life is constant struggle.Isn't it?

Is this my calling?

Perhaps it is..its my time to stand up and do something that i ought to do.Making a difference in my life, and maybe others.Liberating my soul and attain that inner peace that will guide us to true happiness.

She's my source of inspiration

set me free

2008-06-14T16:57:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

I am back.Perhaps i shouldn't,when i am not ready to.

Indulging in self-pityness doesn't bring you anywhere,

but it gives you a sense of comfort.

At the end of the day,

you wondered..what really matter in life?

Afterall..nothing can seems to satisfied your soul..

They said that its all in the mind..but then again..

instead of pretending to feel full when you are hungry..

why not enjoying the hungryness before you find your food?

But how can you even enjoy when you are hungry?

And how the hell did i come up with such a analogy?

If only pigs could fly,

then everything would seems possible.

But nothing would make any sense.

Please set yourself free.Nobody gonna give a shit about you.Time to wake up YJ

hope is gone

2008-05-01T23:08:00.002+08:00

Isn't it silly to wait/hope for something that may not happen?

Sometimes believing is all we can do.
Pessimism is killing me.
And its not that you want to feel this way, but circumstance lead you to do it.
Life is beautiful i must admit, but wouldn't it be nice if things would go your way?
Not that extent but at least having something which you feel that..is truly belong to you.
Which would lead you out from your darkness and achieving things beyond your wildest dreams.

Maybe i should start a lesson preaching negativity or joining a cult(if there's any).And then i would feel better.

I put my trust in you
Push as far as i can go
For all this
There is only one thing you should know

I try so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I have to fall

To lose it all

In the end

It doesn't even matter

I still cant believe

That you are the one

That build me up

and tear me down

Like a old abandon house

life after death

2008-04-29T00:06:00.002+08:00

I did yet another stupidity act that is beyond your wildest imagination. I did it anyway, and i have failed. Which is why i am able to write this silly post of mine right about now. It was yet another act of impulse which makes me doubt about my maturity.Perhaps im still a emo juvenile who never been through shit. Or its just a learning process that i have to go through. Thank god that my family and friends who are there for me.Wait..i think i should thank them instead.

Ms ohla just came back from china, catching up with her was nice. I should really learn from her, on handling stress or problem that cannot be solved by oneself. She was a much stronger person than i expected. And alot of things are more than meet the eye, sometimes we should not see things on the surface. And shits always happen, we must learn how to handle it.

There are 3 kind of people in the world. The penis, the pussy and the asshole. The penis want nothing but screwing the pussy, the pussy thought everyone can get along. Then there is the asshole who did nothing but shitting. And if the penis is not going to screw the asshole, he just gonna shit on everyone else. (ha..this is extracted from some movie..doesnt make sense but its funny)

Its getting late..perhaps i should carry on tml.Life is still a long way to go.

dfsdfsdfs

2008-04-17T22:29:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

I did something silly yesterday.I drop her an sms, even though i know she wont reply.But i waited..she really never reply...my heart sank..once again.This is yet another stupidity act that i should refrain from doing.I just wanted to know how is she doing.Nvm..fuck it.I shouldn't be dwelling over in anymore, i try my best not to.

I fail my adv theory again.Inspite of not revising enuff, i still harbor the tots of passing it.Im the new definition of an idiot.Anyway, my practical still go on..since my instructor tell me he can get mine TP at anytime.

I still have 3 more sup paper to go.Somebody please pray for me.

What is this feeling I have?

I seem to love you

But other times

I seem to loathe you

I can't be without you

Or maybe just without anyone

I think about you all the time

But why do I have this feeling?

I long for your voice

And I would die to hear your laugh

But is this love

Or merely lust?

Extracted from some web.Sigh

P.s : Mich if you see this message help me change my blogskin.You have my username and password right?

poem

2008-04-09T17:58:00.002+08:00

Rose are Red

Violet are Blue

No matter what i do

All i think about is you

Give me back my point of view

Cos i Just cant think for you

No words can describe how much i miss you

amazing race

2008-04-04T23:42:00.002+08:00

I did a Mission Impossible today, tom cruise ur time is up.I jog from Hougang (victor hse) to Tampines st 71. And its really far..so far that i can only run there..end up walking back..and the whole journey took like 3 hours?I hope i wont date anyone that stay in the west.

Our Body seems to be like car, after a rough start..you will be crusing at a constant speed..well..after the petrol has dried..u need to "top up" before you can carry on.In other words, you can actually run faster and smoother after a short and puffy distance.I must have got a big lungs..after smoking so much i still run that far. Just the old tampines road itself can makes you short of breath. And i must say its really dangerous..there is no paveway over there..you have to run over the grass patch at the side of the road, and there are those little rocks that you might trip over.

Finally i reached, i was covered with sweat ; from head to toe. It has been a long time since i came, nothing has changed..everything looks the same to me.So i kept walking around..hoping that i would bump into her..and then pretend to tell her i was just jogging past here and ask her how is she doing..

My sweats are all dried up and shes no where to be seen. I knew that every friday she have badminton on this hour and yet i harbour the tot of bumping into her. Now, this is pure stupidity.

Anyway if she saw me..she would be even more disappointed wit me. So, not a bad thing afterall..take it as a nice workout. But if this is what it takes to get to see her, and talk to her..i'll do it..even if i have to do it everyday, i have all the stamina..dun worry.

But jogging back is a really different issue, i gave up after reaching old tampines Road.Becos its not the same..no more vision no more goal..jus gg home.

YJ is such a fool.Stop doing all these silly things.Apologise to your body.

No Me Ames

2008-04-02T22:41:00.006+08:00

Little did i know that the song No Me Ames (Please dont love me) sang by J Lo and Marc Anthony is such a sad song.I found the direct translation from andrea fonseka's blog.

MAN:
Dime porque lloras-----------------------------Tell me why are you crying?

LADY:
de felicidad--------------------------------------From happiness

MAN:
y porque te ahogas----------------------------And why are you so choked up?

LADY:
por la soledad----------------------------------Because of loneliness

MAN:
di porque me tomas---------------------------Tell me why are you holding
fuerte asi, mis manos-------------------------my hands so tight
y tus pensamientos---------------------------And your thoughts seem to carry you away

LADY:
Yo te quiero tanto-----------------------------I love you so much!

MAN:y porque sera---------------------------------And why is that?

LADY:
loco testarudo---------------------------------Don't be so crazy and stubborn
no lo dudes mas------------------------------Stop doubting me!
aunque en el futuro---------------------------Even if the future holds
haya un muro enorme------------------------a vast emptiness for me
yo no tengo miedo----------------------------I'm not afraid
quiero enamorarme quiero enamorarTE------I just want to love you

MAN:
No me ames-----------------------------------Don't love me
porque pienses--------------------------------because you think
que parezco diferente-----------------------I seem different

LADY:
tu no piensas que es lo justo----------------You don't think it's right
ver pasar el tiempo juntos------------------for us to spend this time together?

MAN:
No me ames--------------------------Don't love me
que comprendo----------------------because I know
la mentira que seria-----------------what a lie it would be!

LADY:
Si tu amor no merezco-----------------If you don't think I deserve your love
no me ames----------------------------then don't love me
mas quedate otro dia------------------Just stay another day here...

MAN:
No me ames----------------------------------Don't love me
porque estoy perdido-----------------------because I'm lost
porque cambie el mundo-------------------because I change the world
porque es el destino------------------------because it's destiny
porque no se puede------------------------because this is impossible
somos un espejo---------------------------We are like
y tu asi serias------------------------------a mirror image of each other
lo que yo de mi reflejo-------------------And you would become what I am

LADY:
No me ames---------------------------------Don't love me
para estar muriendo------------------------to be dying
dentro de una guerra-----------------------in a war of regret
llena de arrepentimientos

No me ames---------------------------Don't love me
para estar en tierra-------------------to remain tied
quiero alzar el vuelo------------------to the ground
con tu gran amor-----------------I want to soar with your love
por el azul del cielo--------------through the blue sky

MAN:
No se que decirte-----------------I don't know what to say
esa es la verdad------------------That's the truth
si la gente quiere-----------------When people want to
sabe lastimar----------------------they can really hurt you

LADY:
Tu y yo partiremos---------When you and I part
ellos no se mueven---------they will remain unmoved
pero en este cielo-----------But now, in this big sky
sola no me dejes------------don't leave me all alone

MAN:
No me dejes, no me dejes------------Don't leave me...don't leave me
no me eschuches---------------------Don't listen to me
si te digo "no me ames"---------------when I say "don't love me"

LADY:
no me dejes, no desarmes------------Don't leave me
mi corazon con ese "no me ames"-------Stop breaking my heart with that "Don't love me"

MAN:
No me ames, te lo ruego------------Don't love me, I'm begging you
mi amargura dejame----------------Leave me with my bitterness

LADY:
sabes bien, que no puedo-----------You know very well I can't do that
que es inutil-------------------------That it's useless
que siempre te amare--------------That I'll always love you

MAN:
No me ames---------------------------Don't love me
pues te hare sufrir--------------------I'll only make you suffer
con este corazon que-----------------with this heart
se lleno de mil inviernos--------------that is full of a thousand winters

LADY:
no me ames------------------------Don't love me
para asi olvidarte------------------to forget
de tus dias grises-----------------your sad grey day
squiero que me ames--------------I want you to love me
solo por amarme-----------------because you love me

MAN:
No me ames---------------Don't love me
tu y yo volaremos-----------You and I
uno con el otro----------------will soar with each other
y seguiremos siempre juntos------and continue together forever

LADY:este amor es como el sol que sale---------This love is like the sun
tras de la tormenta---------------------------that comes out after a terrible storm

BOTH
como dos cometas------------------Like two come
tsen la misma estela------------------in the same galaxy

MAN:No me ames
No me ames
No me ames

LADY:No, no me ames
No me ames
No me ames
No me ames

Somehow every song can relate to you, one way or another.
I miss you

1st lesson

2008-03-31T22:54:00.003+08:00

Today is my very first practical lesson.I was late..due to some unforseen circumstances..wasting my own money.Silly me.Well i know i should have started earlier..my friends got their licence 4 or 5 years ago..here i am..just warming up.But nothing is too late so long u make your very 1st step?She was the reason i took up the decision to get started.Now that i lost it.I have to do it for myself.

I have to admit that it aint easy.But practice make perfect.Motivation is all i need : ) Anway i guess im really not good at multi tasking.I cant seem navigate my hands and legs movement at the same time.Tall people have slow reflexes.I lurve to give excuses : p

Well i dont remember much about what my instructor tell me.I can only recount this verse that he kept repeating " BU YAO LUAN LAI!".Thanks God im home in one piece again.

I am still hoping.

anger management

2008-03-30T16:46:00.012+08:00

Im suppose to limit myself to one just one entry per day.But i just need to vent my anger.

Today suppose to be a very bless day for me,after going to church.Bud somebody just spoil the holy spirit within me.

I went to play soccer with my friends later in the evening.There were this SON OF THE MOTHER, i have no idea what happen to him earlier in the day, maybe his father never give him pocket money today or his hand did not please his manhood.This MOTHER'S SON decided to provoke me for some reason.He is definitely older than me..judging from his group of people.Yet he behave like some juvenile deliquent by acting like a parrot, replying everything i say in a sacastic way.I dunno why he acted this way, maybe he have prejudice against tall people or something.He succeeded in pissing me off which i reacted..well..in a way.But i told my frenz i went to church today and i am not suppose to behave like that.

Dear lord,

Forgive us for our sin as we forgive those who sin against us.Do not bring us to a test, but deliver us from evil.Amen

Come to think about it, i always come back in one piece.Maybe i am being blessed.For the record, no man in the world has hurt me physically...yet.The only time i end up with a blue black in when i fought with my sister when i was young.

Sometimes i wondered if the problem lies with me or people that i came across.I always encounter situation like that.I am not a aggressive person, but if you step on my tail i will snap. I am a civilise person living in a urban society and thus i do not believe in violence, only babarian who never went school would do it.

If only my friend can come over and gimmer a pat on the back or say something to make me feel betta, not neccessarily retailate with me.

I hope my sin are washed away by the shokubusu shower foam i used today.

east coast

2008-03-30T16:46:00.006+08:00

I went to East Coast yesterday with my Band Of Brothers to have our own mini barbercue, together with their WAGs (Wife and Gfs). East Coast is a very nice to place to chill,peaceful and serene.It also make me reminiscent about us walking down the stretch...Thoughts of her surface throughout(well...no matter where i go i still think of her).It is also the place where we first meet : )

Anyway its nice...Thanks for the companionship.

I break my virginity today.I went to church on this very sunday for the very 1st time in my life.Thanks Gladys to bringing me there, i appreciate it. You are a nice person, the lord will bless you.Well..truth to be told, i did not feel much spiritual during the stay..inspite of all the motivating talk from the pastor.I think its becos of the place itself, i always thought that a church look exactly like a church you see in the movie scene, where people get married.You will see the Big cross hanging on the wall..the windows are tinted with painted graphic.But it wasn't..in fact its just a small room in one of those commercial building.Gladys then told me this is actually a secondary place for christian service..the main church is over at Kovan. I understand the location count for nothing but i just dont feel spiritual or peaceful..in fact i cant feel the lord presence, maybe he went for a short break or i wasn't fated for the lord.Afterall i was preached about buddhism all my life by the parent.Little did i know that Guan Yin Goddness is buddhism, i always thought that so long there is a statue in the alter..its taoist.

Anyway i hope my dad wont find out about it.This father of mine is a anything-but-buddhism disciple, and he is super cynical about Jesus..he simply like to criticsize bout christianity. I hope the lord have mercy and dun punish him for his foul mouth. He is just another Male Chavunistic Pig living in his Mao Zhe Dong era.Sad to say but we are living in a democracy society with " freedom of speech". Im not even afraid if he found out bout this posting becos he dont understand english. Thank God my dad is a typical cheena.

At the end of the day, he is still my father and im still his son..no doubt about it.And as for church..i dun mind finding out more..but have baptized..is currently out of question..i am still procastinating.

The truth shall set you free.

longxiang wed

2008-03-27T00:19:00.003+08:00

Today is my friend mister Wang Long Xiang Wedding.I was late, i din manage to witness the cremony.It was his childhood sweetheart, how sweet.Anyway, i hope they have a blissful marriage.All the best : ) I wondered if i one day will walk down aisle with the woman i loved the most..

The newly wed
The now uncle and aunties

These are my very pioneer friends i met in my life.They are the group are people whom i used to enjoy with..but time flies..we all have our own issues to deal with.Truth to be told, i dun really enjoy the jokes they crack, the topic they talk about..due to me being different..i still enjoy spending time with them..sometimes by just being there is more than enough.Friends are for life.

And also becos of attending his wedding..i did the unthinkable..i ask my mom " hey..would you accept that i find a woman who is older than me? she replied without much thinking " so long u are happy" i add on " wad if she is alot older than me, too old to have kids?" she pondered for a moment and she said "You make your own choices, but u must know whether if you will be happy to be with sombody like that" and then she told me that i am still young..still have time to find someone else and she ask me to bring that woman to meet her.

I realise that my mom really care about me and want me to be happy, it always take something special to make me realise things like that...not that im not aware that she does..but words are always remain unspoken.Deep down i know that....no matter what i do, whether she like it or not..she want me to be happy..and that is all i need.I know she loves me, and i love her too.Hey mom if ever the day i break your heart, i want you to know..i didn't mean it and i love you.

Come to think about it, i have all my basic needs met and i should be happy.But life is not that simple..isn't it?

rip

2008-03-23T23:38:00.006+08:00

Good bye my heart.Rest in peace :)

edff

2008-03-23T23:38:00.005+08:00

Im standing on the edge.Somebody please help.

im a ass

2008-03-23T23:38:00.002+08:00

Im a certified Juvenile with zero creativity.

fcuk

2008-03-23T13:56:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary,

Until now, i still cant get over the fact that it is all over.Its really hard to give up something, when its all that you want.Why did you have to go?Everything would be so nice if u stay..but you take an easy way out.

Still procrastinating on gg to church this coming sunday, gladys jus told me she would accompany me if i want to..beside there is this powerful speaker from philipines is having a motivational speech.i have been longing to go to church one day..maybe this is the chance to do so.I should not be thinking about having baptized, i dunno for sure how my family will react.I should just swept it under the rug.

I thot i found a reason to change who i used to be, a reason to start over new.I lost it.

10 years

2008-03-21T22:01:00.004+08:00

Dear Lord,

I have got no idea if you read blogs, but if you came across mine

..spend some time reading it?So that you know what i want and u answer my prayers?I know you love me but i need a sign..a prove...Just like creating beer..it is the living proof that you loves us and want us to be happy.You know i love you too but my dad is a staunch buddhist..my dad will kill me if i become a christian..well not literally.. but i will break his heart..and i will do it if you answer my prayers..i will convince him what i do is right.

Make it a deal..a negotiation..a transaction..or whatever it is..if there is anything i could exchange for..i do it..wadeva it takes.

With all due respect, all i asking for is what they teaches in church..and thats faith. Thats all i need.

The truth will set you free.

wont go home w/o u

2008-03-14T20:58:00.002+08:00

WONT GO HOME WITHOUT YOU

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of your breath, I'll never get over
The noises that you made kept me awake
The weight of things that remaind unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you

YJ is back

2008-03-10T19:43:00.002+08:00

YJ is back again.

Sometimes you just got no idea what to write, becos there's nothing worth jotting down.

Went to watch 10,000 BC with lotti last night.The storyline was quite simple but it was nice..full of action. Its about a mammoth hunter who is in love with this blue eye girl and emerge into a hero.It kinda inspire u in a way, wanting to be like him.

Anyway, there are tons of nice movies coming up. Step up 2, perhaps perhaps?, harold and kumar 2, that will farrell basketball comedy and so on.what's with me?

I have to keep myself busy, keep myself motivated for this period of time.If not i think i will go bonkers.Thank God i have my friends around.I should thank my friend instead.

Here is some interesting lesson that we can all learnt : )

Four Management Lessons

Lesson Number One

A crow was sitting on a tree, doing nothing all day. A small rabbit saw the crow, and asked him, 'Can I also sit like you and do nothing all day long?'

The crow answered: 'Sure, why not.'

So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the crow, and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Management Lesson: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

Lesson Number Two

A turkey was chatting with a bull.

'I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree,' sighed the turkey, 'but I haven't got the energy. 'Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?' replied the bull. 'They're packed with nutrients.'

The turkey pecked at a lump of dung and found that it actually gave him enough strength to reach the first branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fortnight, there he was proudly perched at the top of the tree. Soon he was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot the turkey out of the tree.

Management Lesson: Bullshit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there.

Lesson Number Three

When the body was first made, all the parts wanted to be Boss. The brain said, 'I should be Boss because I control the whole body's responses and functions.'

The feet said, 'We should be Boss as we carry the brain about and get him to where he wants to go.' The hands said, 'We should be the Boss because we do all the work and earn all the money.' And so it went on and on with the heart, the lungs and the eyes until finally the asshole spoke up.

All the parts laughed at the idea of the asshole being the Boss. So the asshole went on strike, blocked itself up and refused to work. Within a short time the eyes became crossed, the hands clenched, the feet twitched, the heart and lungs began to panic and the brain fevered. Eventually they all decided that the asshole should be the Boss, so the motion was passed.

All the other parts did all the work while the Boss just sat and passed out the shit!

Management Lesson: You don't need brains to be Boss, any asshole will do!

Lesson Number Four

A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold, the bird froze and fell to the ground in a large field. While it was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on it. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, it began to realize how warm it was. The dung was actually thawing him out!

He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard he bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him!

Management Lessons:

1. Not everyone who drops shit on you is your enemy.

2. Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.

3. When you're in deep shit, keep your mouth shut!

dsfsfsdf

2008-02-23T13:10:00.003+08:00

Dear Lord,

Please tell me what to do, gimme a sign or something.Its really hard to give up something you hope for, especially it is all that you want.I just realise that controling ur temper is hard, controling your emotion is harder.And alot of times, we dun mean what we say, dun ever make the same mistake again.

Why izzit that when u misses someone, your heart ach so badly.And when you cut yourself,it bleed; after a while the wound heal, but the scar still remained.

Living in a state of melanchloy.Im sorry to whoever to have been affected by me.i din mean it.

Je taime

sian ar

2008-01-28T18:36:00.000+08:00

IS 2008 a good year?

Lets find out

Bad News 1: Heath Ledger passed away not long ago, at the age of 28(im 23 this year)...One of the young actor in hollywood, the guy from brokeback mountain.Apparently the wife left him with their daughter, he couldn't take it..emotionally..so..he keep taking alcohol and drugs.Poor guy.

Bad News 2: Jessica alba is really pregnant.She used to be the hottest actress in the world.

Well...not anymore.

And this is Liv Tyler..the daughter of aerosmith..used to be one of the beautiest woman in the world.
Look at her now..oh dear...

Bad news 3 : Jamie lynn spear decided to give up her baby for adoption.What is goin on?

Bad news 4: i think i flung my statistic paper..damn...the paper's so difficult.Izzit becos of the lecturer or izzit me?Anyway..im screwed.

ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END!

random

2008-01-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

Its time for some update.

My lesson are as good as over.Tml is my presentation. wish me good luck.

Next week is my study week, for my last 2 module.Its make or break, gonna pray hard .

Still procastinating on my revision.God i need some wisdom!

Make a new friend.We has been chatting for 2 weeks by now, everything seems great. Somone who engage intellectual conversation when my friends can only tell me which team to bet on this sat or which girl they just laid. Anyhow...i definitely gain alot, one way or another.Thanks..u make me feel different.

Somehow i lost that blogging touch.

This is jessica Alba..one of the hottest celebrity in hollywood..apparently her boobs are gettin bigger and there are rumours that shez pregnant...geez..

ANd this is now-crazy britney sister, Jamie lynn spears..sweet looking huh?Shez pregnant.enuff said.

"Bring an umbrella when it rains"

ur guardian angel

2008-01-08T22:15:00.001+08:00

YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL

When I see your smile
tears roll down my face
I can't replace.

And now that I'm strong I have figured out
how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul,
and I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.
It's ok

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.
Cause you're my
you're my, my
my true love
my whole heart
please don't throw that away.
Cause I'm here, for you
please don't walk away and
please tell me you'll stay, stay..
Use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know I'll be okay
though my skies are turning gray.
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

wedding ceremony

2007-12-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

My Dad Remarry today!huat ah

No la..My dad and my mom particpated in the wedding ceremony organised by the soka association...something like a remarrying thing.How cool is that?

Bud only after like 32 years for co-habiting.At least my dad did something...so...not too bad...haha...he put in quite an effort i guess..

Decorating his ride

Come to think bout it...although he always screw us like hell...hes not too bad

Hope they did enjoyed the whole process

The maker of mr YJ

I think he was inspired by the show PIMP MY RIDE...he went to paint the car..change the rim..almost like a new car

i forgot to mosaic the plate number..so pls dun tail gate my dad

On and off the roadthats the interior design..i think he try too hard
thats their production, YJ...its a rough copy

During the time when i was growing up...having to witnessed them quarreling..crying..the downside..everything.I always ask myself whether my mom is happy with her life..being with my dad....how their childs grew up(not according to their expectation)..i always tell myself not to let history repeat itself..by making my wife happy...cos my mum is the submissive one...shes the one that make everything happen..and maybe she wasn't happy at all..

I guess i was wrong....everything happen for a reason...its the mystic law...if u go according to the flow..nothing will go wrong..And as an adult...there are things beyond your control and its not up to you...but u make the best out of it..make it happen

Anyway...being with somebody for so long aint easy...so...cheers to all the parents that make it happen..and rock on

Today sister n my cousin keep asking to me hug my mom...hug my grandma..bla bla bla...

They dun understand that im a chinese...and chinese are born conservative and boring...chinese dun show their affection through all these...i wan to be different bud i cant

And they dun realise im not a girl...hey..im a guy..im a dude

A guy has a ego...there are certain things they wish to do bud they just cant...its beyond their control

im just giving myself some stupid excuse..i hope somebody buy that..btw i would to lurve to bud i paiseh.

pple...try to understand!

christmas

2007-12-16T19:44:00.000+08:00

Christmas is coming.9 more days. Would this christmas be any different?

Ha..this is funny

Has been clubbing with Jo this few days. Zouk, Mos, Mos...go here go there..drunk here vomit there.Wad e hell am i doing...Might be heading to zouk this wed(alright..serene is gg)...wadeva u say Jo...I just cant stop drinking..sometimes i wondered why i go club..just to drink?

Jo has been great...he introduce quite a few friends to me this few days...a malaysian with a 10 million will, (he keep askin where we stay and want ask to sent him back)..maybe his 10 million is in rupiah.Then there was this guy with a cap...look like some hip hopper(plus a metal spec)..he look so cool...and also few others gurls...they look like some american next top model

If only everything i said is true.Bud truth hurts sometimes..Everything is gg the opposite way.And truth to be told, Jo is such a nice khakis to club with. Simply becos he drive and he dun drink..and he stay in hougang..haha..i think i save a millions bucks for cab fare...bud i do appreciate it..cos i noe he dun like pple for granted..lol...and hes tall..so i got no problem finding him in club.

The only disadvantage is that...im a contrast for him..usually u hang out with sb uglier than u...chances are...u look better..trust me...U hang out with sb short...he will makes u look tall...This is wad we call Contrast Effect...btw im still looking for my contrast..i doubt i can find one.

Oh Jo also got study Quality Control too...im impress man...he know how to filtered out things that is not pleasing to the eyes. And i think we click becos we share the same view.lol...Becos some pple have blur vision.....and i think they should work on that...its really serious.

Its time to have some wish list for my christmas man...

A ferrari
with alessandra ambrosio inside
plus maggie Q in the car boot

Dreams will never be dreams if it came true.

Maybe i can get a Merc (Cab)

Tonbang Fiona Xie

And Andrea Fonseka

Together we go Bedok 85 eat bar chor mee.

2007-12-07T18:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday my sis saw me chatting with my frenz Huixian in Msn...

sis: Hey dok, is that your friend?

YJ: duh...why?

sis: He look like that Joakim from s'pore idol

YJ: .......

This is Joakim Gomez from S'pore Idol

This is my frenz Huixian

Separate at birth?No idea Man

Huixian Please Dun sue Me!

SHould i go Zouk tonight?Anyone Going?????

drink drink drink

2007-12-07T10:29:00.000+08:00

Meet up with serene last nite

We went to Marina Square food court to have our dinner.Did u noe that u can sit outdoor?And let me tell u...the scenery was super nice..can see the big durian(explanade) and alot other big structure...really nice..bud too bad its not a date.

After that we took a cab to MS...and we practically walk around like 2 moron.WAnted to go Double O cos i nv go be4 and the drinks are as cheap as a plate of chicken rice..bud upon reaching there..i saw the queue..out 10 pple..10 are malay..then i was like "did we go to the wrong place?"Then all of them like looking at us..like trying to tell us..hey this is a mud place and its for the mud..not cina..wadeva..the entrance was 25 anyway..so decided to go elsewhere..we went check out the ex momo...now it change to central mall..and let me tell u..the place is like ghost town...super quiet....so we decided to go boat quay..tt's e only place i noe..lol

upon reaching there..same old story..intoxicification...drink drink drink...went to order the 151 shot and i purposely light up the shot..i tot it was cool..end up scalding our tongue..and it still hurt..bodoh...i always drink above my limit..damn..after quite a few round..i sense something is not right..haha..i felt uneasy..something is not right..dun care..jus drink,since we still have a jug.......After a sip..woah..cannot....think is coming out...no choice..dump the beer and i told her we should go..

immediately we got a cab...i was really shag lor..my eyes are closing...i think she was quite sober..anyway..i just keep trying to stay conscious..i dunwan her to sent me back..so i act like im alright...bud i oreadi feel like puking...lucky i din..inside the cab..i done it millions of times..bud not this time...i manage to sent her home..and luckily..i manage to sent myself home..then uponing reaching..it was time to pay up..i couldn't find my wallet..woah..den panick..keep searching all my pocket..still couldn't find..i think the driver also panick..haha..den i look to the left..ar..its at the seat..so i pay up and left..

And then same old story....went to the lang gao(the drain)

and vomit like hell...den i was wondering..will i die of vomiting..terrible...i still manage to take a shower and go to bed.

Moral of the story: If u cant drink.dun drink

Collide

2007-11-29T21:36:00.000+08:00

Even the best fall down sometimes

Jus finished my assignment, hope the lecturer wont fail me.I din put much effort, bud at least i will submit. So...be merciful alright?if not i burn his house.

Even the stars refuse to shine.

Somehow u and i collide

This few days the newspaper has been posting the cambodia dragon Boat Tragedy. Well, i naturally feel sad apon reading it..Bud i think it affect more on their love ones, especially their parents.

Sometimes u might think that life is vulnerable, when your time is up, you just have to go.But have u ever tot of how your family and friends feel?the agony?the pain?U can only understand it when u experience it.

Apparently all 5 of them are high flyer, all are undergraduate, i believes they are the one pple look up to, excel in life..those highly motivated pple..who have so much to give.....and now they are gone..just like that..

Based on that, i guess i gonna live a long long time man. But they should be proud of themselves, all that they have achieve...

bud wadeva things happen..life still goes on.

Game plan

2007-11-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

Went to watch this show today.Game Plan.ANd i must say its really really nice...everyone should go watch it...kinda hartwarming..for certain scenes..not Bad.

Overall it was good la...its a comedy show..bud more than just that..i will tell u more.

Basically its a bout this guy call joe kingmans..or wadeva..(forgotton his name)act by the rock..he's a very famous quarter back(a position in ruby)..he got the fame he got the money..everything..he won countless trophies..MVP..u name it..he have it all..

Then suddenly he found out that he has a daughter..

thats her!

And i can tell u...she is really really cute...not just her face..its her character..i think the director simply tell her to be herself...she has a really chubby character..and she is super cute..the way she speak...wad really catches me is the little gesture she did for her dad..and the things that she say...u know..unbelievable..u should catch the show..its really hilarious...If u ask me for a good reason to watch it?Her.

sian ar

2007-11-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

Damn..my mum and my sister are occupying the tv..i cant watch my MAN U...not in mood also.Went to Thai Disco again last night.All thanks to mr Luo.As usual..drinkin session..im dying.

Guowei actually went inside with 2 of his friends before i came...he really drink alot..until he mabok..he is slightly tispy la..so i actually hold him..just in case he fall down. Three uniform policeman saw us and immediately he stopped us and check on our particular.

THen one of them very action, he see my frenz abit drunk..he say something like..go home!bla bla..talk to us like some bodoh bodoh cina like that..we are both tipsy la..so my frenz stared hard at him....upon seeing this..that policeman shouted back..like..wad..u not happy ar..or sth like that...he just want to find trouble with my frenz...so my frenz shouted back la..like..what....so i actually wanted to stop the quarreling la..end up i also join them.he sayin what he can arrest us back bla bla bla...damn idiotic la..that guy..feel like complaining bout him bout i dun remember his name.

That guy is really really really an ass hole.Sergant somemore..i hate it..when pple abuse their authority.Okie la..i mean if we are some juvenlie...those xiao hun hun..small time gangster or wadeva..then u action..i mean..u go ahead la..by all means.

But no..u are messing with the wrong pple.I hope u get into trouble someday.God will punished u!knn...

Yes i understand that my frenz is drunk and he shouldn't behave this way.But that guy shouldn't behave that way either. I believe they were doing patroling la..in the 1st place..their job is to protect the civilians right..not that i dun appreciate them.But u dun fucking provoke pple who are drunk and then abuse ur authority.Obviously when u drunk u dun care wad u do right...that bodoh bodoh still purposely wan to find trouble with us.Why cant he speak nicely to us..why?becos u are police and this is how u speak?knowing that my frenz is drunk he still talk this way.obviously wan to find trouble with us...is that the right attitude?for god sake, take pride in ur uniform..u want respect?earn it...dun be a sadist..tryin to make other's life diffcult.Did he went to skool?if he is educated he shld NOT behave like a barbarian.

i also a bit cock la..i wake up in the morning and then i think back what happen..i was so pissed off..bud too late also..fark..im a bit lag.

And ya..and thanks alot shuying...i was so drunk last night...vomit all the way back to hougang..i think if im the driver i kick the person out of the car lor..becos inside the car is enclosed..u can exactly the sound the person vomit..beside..it stink also..bud he dun seems to mind..he even offered me a plastic bag..now...this is customer service!thanks..i appreciate it..and thanks huh..im suppose to sent u back home..instead u drop at the main road..kinda guilty haha..

think i should go now..stop rantin anymore..shall update in the near future..btw..ask that person go fark a dog..pissed off.okie.stop.

Facebook!

2007-11-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

Hasn't been bloggin for quite sometime oreadi.I was hook on facebook..Friendster is a thing of a past.Facebook is really really fun.Becos u can add all kinds of application.U get to meet new frenz..all around the world.Not just s'pore..how cool is that...hurry up join now..its easy to use by the way.So dun worry.

There was this particular application call human pets.One of my current favourite.U get to see alot of really pretty girls.

Show u some example of really pretty girls...

Alright...this is from s'pore..yah..and i think she is pretty..bud she keep sleeeping.I cant wake her up

This one i think also from s'pore la..i saw one of her comment..she wrote sth like lim ar..bo da bo lan pa..lol..typical s'porean right..i cant imagine her sayin that.Anyway she put her country australia la..Maybe she's studyin over there..

Woo...this is some ang mor..no idea where is she from...she look hot right?

This is my fav...she's so pleasant to the eyes...bud kinda too good to be true la..she's a japanese....pretty right?

ANyway..these are all the pictures they displayed, whether izzit their real self or not.i really got no idea.Its really hard to say.Some will talk to u la..others just take it for granted..hao lian right?haha..no la..some are friendly..and its really nice to chat with pple from different country..yea yea

And er..dun expect everyone to be so beautiful la..some are really cock..some put really really funny pictures.

This guy really look funny..i even added him even though i got no idea who the hell is he.But i think he's cute..dunno if that his real pic anot..LMAO

Alright..i think im done....MAN U vs BLACKBURN later

Can the red devil produce the magic again?Against all odd?rooney injured/blackburn haven been beaten on road..yet.../no rooney-tevez combination/

ANyway...if u have been watching them right...they are really really really really good..their passing?fantastic..JOga Bonito..play beautifully!tt's wad they have been doing now..im so proud of them..Carlo tevez?one hell of a good striker...he's really hardworking..running like a headless chicken to win the ball back...

hope they win tonight..huat ah

life changes...feelings remain the same

2007-10-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

nyHas been working for these few days..felt so tired...for so long i have never been so busy that i dun even have time to laze around.anyway its all over..just have to get back to my exam..gonna pray hard that i never screw up.

Came back from work today..turn on the tv...it happened to be showing the movie Click on HBO..so i decided to watched it, even though i watched on cinema before. And then i remember i was so touched by the movie the 1st time i watched it.I still remember i watched it last year on August 09th 2006..over at tampines...initially i tot it was like a few years back...it really touches my hart..even though its e 2nd time i watch it.Sometimes we just take things for granted in our life..and its only when we loses it..we started to felt the pain...bud its oreadi being too late.

According to the show...its the process that really counts...like when u wanted something so much...bud after u get it....u found that its the things that happen during the period that matter the most.Its one of those movie that bring u down the earth and at the same time...makes u pondered over what is really important in ur life..and somehow inspire u.

As time goes by...things changes..but some remain the same.

dot dot dot

2007-10-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

Today my frenz told me his frenz is suprise that i own a blog.But i wasn't suprise...guys usually dun blog rite.

Not that im different or something..i mean..i do have emotion..u punch me i'll bleed!im just like any other guys in the world..i have my dark side..i have my mean side..bud i do have my soft side my good side

And my backside!

bud usually those pple who blog are usually people who have free time to do it la..they just jot down their feelings and tots..and then they grew older..they look back at it...thinking back those moment...luff bout it and live..it'll be so cool.

i notice that pple who post a very long entries...chances are....pple wont read ur blog...tt's wad im tryin to do now..maybe its just me who think this way...usually pple like to view pics..video or sth...lonng entries are just entries they want to rant bout...not considering how the viewer do..which is what im doing now.Attemptin to post some rubbish so pple whom im not comfortable with..will not read my blog.

oh ya..today is victor bday..and tml is PJ bday...happy bday to all the oct babies.

vic bday

2007-10-13T16:35:00.000+08:00

Went to golden mile eat steamboat yesterday,to celeb victor bday

(in advance,due to ns commitment)

bday man( nt boy)

"vanggie" and mingling

Yiping and lotti

LMAO..Alson

Apparently we were suppose to meet at golden mile at 8 pm for our steamboat

as usual..everyone was slightly late..

Guess what...after like half an hour or so..i receive a sms from this guy, mr alson lee

"hey...i think i u all go eat , i lost my way..now at cck..think i meet u guys after that.."

lol..he lost his way!upon seeing this..i straight away call him...he sound so sad...lol...he said he now driving....call me later..say he might nt be joining us...lol

bud he somehow he manage to find the place...an hour later...lol..
haha..

maybe we should get him a navigator..

the mysterious guest

hey mich..thanks for coming huh....

though ur not close with us but u still make an effort to celeb victor bday..ur effort is appreciated.

Have u notice there's one empty seat?its mine

For some reason, he decided to strike a pose.

Mich and vic

She noes that im takin photo of her...it simply shows that there is a certain shyness in her.though she got a outgoing personality..and its rare

pic of the day

We went to "hole" garden yesterday...and for some reason..the cam batt decided to go flat...din manage to take any fotos..Hope you enjoy ur day mr LUO....and eh mich...thanks again...and hope you are feeling better by now..im suppose to be your guardian for yesterday night..apparently i din do my job.lol

" People changes over the time, perhaps u dun even know that person well enuff"

critic!

2007-10-01T22:07:00.000+08:00

today i jus got receive some negative feedback bout me..well..according to one of my peers.But i really do not what traits of me that he was refering to..becos he himself doesn't know the right term to describe my action.Perhaps i was too insensitive recently.Anyway..thanks for the criticism.But it doesn't mean that im wrong or they are right.Its all down to perception!

why am i toking bout it?im bothered bout it?

Perhaps..haha..im not good at receiving criticism...though im good at giving..i guess its my karma..im too evil mouth sometimes....work on tt dude..(im tokin to myself)

something bout me is that..once i know a particular person who wasn't impress by me..in other words..do not like bout me...based on their judgmental perceptual point of view....i would just ignore the person..not to the extent....but to a certain degree..

Bud after some careful consideration...maybe it was really me..the source of problem?no idea man...my interpersonal skill is still not very good..i gotta work on that..so is my sensitivity...its impossible to please everybody around you..i guess we all have to keep trying everyday....maybe i got low EQ too...

something to cheer bout...maggie Q

i din know she's a vegetarian....and i definitely din noe that she is also the ambassador of PETA..i think it stand of People of Ethincal treatment of animal..sth like tt..its a not for profit organisation( well..according to them).. to raise awareness of treating the animals ethnically..maybe i should try vegetarian too..haha..bud i cant live w/o meats..

wadeva wadeva

2007-09-30T00:11:00.001+08:00

Went to thai disco yesterday nite!the girls are pretty and sexy..beside they dance really well!

Im impressed!oh..thanks hanxiang for the chivas huh..nextime we shall treat u back : )

apparently i was told by myself to get drunk..and i did.

i did a merlion....well..it was just anoder torrid time.nothing unusual.btw shuying started it 1st lor..follow by me...its a jinx

oh yea..thanks huixian for sentin me back to my cribs.(and takin foto when we merlion)

we went to watch Balls of fury today.it was hilarious...bud its wasn't that fantastic..the only thing that worth mention is maggie Q....she's so fucking gorgeous....unbelievable..

Dear maggie,

If you happen to see this message, marry me.

Truly yours,

Gw POP pics

2007-09-16T17:53:00.000+08:00

Guowei Passing out Parade. Lao Bu help him wear his jungle hat.

Touching Moment taken by YJ.

Ah Ma went too...

Soldier and his mom
LMAO..mouse
Soldier with a guy in cap
Commando!For honour and glory!
This is Guowei platoon mate..LMAO..that guy in the right look like tammi boyfriend.

This is the real Tammi Bf.Separate at birth?lol

We organise a mini barbercue..just a few of us

All my friends has lost interest in playing soccer..how..

Life is a joke sometimes..i need a time machine

for honour and glory!

2007-09-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

Thanks Michiru for helping me to changing my blogskin : )

Went to Mr Luo POP today..too bad i cant upload the pics today..

For Honour and glory!Commando!huat ar!

Oh ya..to soldier and soldier soon to be...please take some pride in smelling good...i know that after some tedious training..you bound to sweat...bud there's something call deodorant right...one bottle like few bucks only lor..dunno where to get?go Mustafa..from adidas to some mickey mouse brand..go check it outt...smelly recruits!LMAO..no la..take some pride in smelling good...not just lookin good..the smell is super acidic lor..

Other than the stink just now..everything seems alright...well done soldiers..enjoy ur weekend.

oh oh..went to play badminton wit qiming and co.

Din expect them to be good at it..lucky im not that bad either...its been a long time since i last workout...now that my soccer khakis are back..i cant wait to kick some ball.

high school musical

2007-09-08T16:00:00.002+08:00

Vanessa Hudgens.

good girl gone bad!

2007-09-08T16:00:00.001+08:00

Good girl gone bad!no its not rihanna this time.Its Vanessa Hudgens

In case you got no idea who the hell she is

She's that Gabriella from the overwhelming High School Musical, together with Troy(Zac)..her off screen boyfriend.

Guess what..she's quite pretty and she can really really sing..she's 18..so much more to go..

Bud now everything gone to waste..she oso stupid la...she went to admit the person in that photo is really her..nowadays photoshop so common and some are as good as real..so..why not

Maybe that's her 1st intuition..to own up...since it has been exposed

i think she know all this are coming..bud she din expect it to happen when she's so popular.

i guess All good things come to an end

Maybe she can make the best out of it?just like paris hilton..make use of her popularity?

Selamat datang!wel CUM to malaysia!

2007-08-19T20:06:00.001+08:00

Went to Malaysia yesterday!

The first thing we do?

Eat the new chessy bites fondue!

Rating : 3/5
Review: It wasn't that nice, except for the chessy bites fondues.
The rest are just fine.

After that we went to JUSCO.

The "vivo city" of malaysia

Malaysia Version of Deal or no Deal

They all look like they are pregnant/Deal or no deal?

We went to this wulu wulu resturant to have our dinner.

ANd the result? We wasted our time and money.The food really sucks.

Saw this new BMW Z2.So far i only see Z4 in sg before.Z2?first of a kind.

10 things you never knew bout sex!

2007-08-17T21:26:00.000+08:00

1. The typical lovemaking session lasts around 15 minutes: roughly 10 to 12 minutes of foreplay and around 3 to 5 minutes of intercourse.

2. Humans aren't the only horny members of the animal kingdom doing it just for fun. Dolphins and a type of chimpanzee called the bonobo have also been observed engaging in sexual activity when they are not in their natural reproductive cycles.

3. While Viagra has made erectile dysfunction (affecting 10 to 12 percent of men) a household phrase, the opposite problem -- premature ejaculation -- is more common (affecting 24 to 27 percent of men). The U.S. Food and Drug Administration is currently reviewing a drug called dapoxetine as a cure for this problem.

4. Crank up that thermostat... orgasms may be more intense in warmer conditions. The degree of vasocongestion, reddening or darkeing of the skin known as the "sex flush," is both more common in warmer temperatures and an indication of how intense an orgasm may be.

5. If a woman experiences orgasm during sex, she is more likely to become pregnant, since orgasmic spasms in pelvic muscles help move sperm up the vaginal canal to the uterus.

6. Homosexuality is not unique to humans. Many species have been observed engaging in homosexual activity, and in fact male bats have the highest rate of homosexuality of all mammals.

7. On any given day 400,000,000 people around the world -- 1 in 17 of us -- will have sexual intercourse. Broken down further, 4,000 people are having sex at any given time.

8. Sex cures headaches. Endorphins released into our bloodstream when we have sex not only give us pleasure but also act as painkillers. Useful information to whip out the next time your partner uses a headache as a reason to say no.

9. Many elderly can and do have frequent sex. At age 70, 73% of males are still potent, and 30% of women 80 or older have still have sex.

10. 70% of women would rather eat choclate than have sex.

How true is the last one?

damn

Tei nis

2007-08-16T20:38:00.000+08:00

Wake up late again tonight.Damn
End up missing the 1st session.
Went to play tennis today!my 1st time!

It was pretty fun,except that we spent most of time picking up ball..lol.
It was almost like playing badminton except the racket is heavier and a lil more difficult..

But once u get the rythem..u start to enjoy the game.

Roger Federer

"If you want to be a tennis player, then mould yourself on Roger Federer. I won three Wimbledon titles and I wish I could play like him."—McEnroe

I just realise that somebody is avoiding somebody
Maybe im wrong. who knows
I just hope it wasn't me, im not that detestful

im Looking for sports khakis

Tennis

Badminton?

Soccer

time to block box blog!

2007-08-14T20:54:00.000+08:00

I want to be a tann-iest man on earth!

Hopefully i can achieve that before i get skin cancer!

i want to quit smoking!

Before i get lung cancer!

i want to quit Drinking!

before my liver break down

I want to be short

In my next life!

This is supermodel Alexandra Ambrosio!By far the sexiest model in the world..lol...for me la.I want to be a Brazilian!They play samba football like nobody does.They produces model like her, gisele, adriano lima...gosh..

Alexandra Ambrosio once quoted "Take care of yourself, be healthy, and always believe you can be successful in anything you truly want." -

Now...Who is Fiona Xie?

Save tonight

2007-08-01T21:37:00.001+08:00

Go on and close the curtains,
'cause all we need is candlelight.
You and me and a bottle of wine,
gonna hold you tonight, oh yeah.
Well, we know I'm going away
And how I wish, I wish it weren't so
so take this wine and drink with me
let's delay our misery...
Save tonight
Fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight
Fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
There's a log on the fire
and it burns like me for you
Tomorrow comes with one desire..
to take me away,oh it's true
It ain't easy to say goodbye,
darling please don't start to cry.
'Cause girl you know I've got to go, oh
Lord I wish it wasn't so
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Tomorrow comes to take me away
I wish that I, that I could stay
but girl you know I've got to go, oh
and Lord I wish it wasn't so
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Tomorrow I'll be gone
Save Tonight.. Save Tonight..
Save Tonight.. Save Tonight..
Save tonight.. Oh thats Right!
Save Tonight.. Save Tonight..
Save Tonight

2007-07-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary,

Im 22 now
And i just need 28 more years
I think its more than enuff (provided im alive 28 later)
i always tot we could turn back time and start everything again,not making the same mistake we make.Apparently its not gonna happen and it never will.
Make the best out of it?Not my style.If life is a game..i will keep restarting and restarting,even its not Game Over..yet.i will sit on the rock and reflect on what i done wrong and keep whining to myself....im a super pessimistic person..sometimes
But the ironic part is that im optimistic rest of the time.
im full of "passion","waiting to be inspire"..
im that kind of person who cant sleep at night because my brain just cant stop thinking and my body just cant stop fidgeting..
perhaps finding the best position to sleep..
i must admit i sleep in a very weird position that doesn't even make sense
Anyway..kiwi doesn't help(they say eat kiwi help u sleep)
alcohol sometimes doesn't works
bud sometimes music hypotise me to sleep..and its not those lullaby kinda tunes..in fact its those super noisy song like rihanna-umbrella..MCR..n so on..
of cos with the help of my beloved MP3

They say Success is not measure by how much money u earn.

But on how u balance your life between..ur family..ur love?
or even ur friends.
it does make sense..and i dont think i could earn much also..lol.

I dont need a big house
i dont need a sport car
i dont need a hot gf

i just need a magic potion that makes me sleep soundly every night
i need inspiration,not negativity
i dun need a friend,i just need someone who understand
i dun need a licence,i walk home and i am enjoying every moment

if u think u know me...think again

2007-07-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

Transformer was really good..fantastic i mean...and megan fox?she smoking hot...i guess i always have a soft spot of pretty girls..infact everyone does..unless that person is a super confident cum super suave guy with a dozen of hot chicks to spare....yes they are super appealing to ur eye,they seems to be perfect..bud its just-so-not-true..shall not elaborate..and im not sterotyping that girls like them aint good...its just too good to be true..

"There's more than meet the eye"

Cai huixian book out yest...hope he have a wonderful weekend. : )

Im drinkin myself to sleep tonight...hopefully i can get drunk and sleep like a baby.

rock on people/tommorow a beta day/why/becos it has to be/why not/we dun need anymore negativity from anyone/not even urself/

Tribute to ms vanggie

2007-07-10T01:09:00.001+08:00

this is not vanggie...upload wrong...some hot chick

vanggie!

2007-07-10T01:09:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday vanggie..i just wanna say that i wont be there for you...becos there are so many guys willing to do so and im not going to be one of them...in fact..i will be mean to you..becos that is the only way to bring u back to the ground....

They wont be there for you forever..neither do i..becos things will change as time passes..And its time stand up on ur own...get out of the comfort zone..

Dun be just a pretty face...be somebody

Live in reality...not in denied

Being pretty is ur biggest asset...it is also ur biggest weakness

i know sometimes i dun practice wad i preach.

anyway..

When the sun shinesWe’ll shine together

Told you I'll be here forever

That I'll always be your friend

Took an oath

I'mma stick it out 'till the end

Now that it's raining more than ever

Know that we still have each other

You can stand under my Umbrella

ella ella eh eh eh under my umbrella

haha

sibeisian

YJ paint the house

2007-07-04T17:20:00.001+08:00

Da Vanggie frenz's YJ painting

I know i sucks...bud who care..haha..its my door..im getting more and more artistic...keep it up YJ

four mod- love love

2007-07-04T17:20:00.000+08:00

thai girl?i like...

For u ms ohla

2007-06-28T18:49:00.000+08:00

to Ms ohla

2007-06-27T02:56:00.000+08:00

i jus wanna say that..i miss you..as a friend?as my best frenz gf?wadeva it is..i really misses you..u are always that perfect girl i knew..that girl who loves avril lavigne..that girl who believe so much bout love..the one who really know what is going on..i really dun care wad pple say bout u..who the hell u really are..

Becos nobody is perfect..and i like the way u are..i just wanna say that..i hope everything could be same again..i really dun mind to be that extra person around..as long as everyone is happy..u know..

to me...as long as someone loves you with all his hart...no matter wad he do..or how he behaves..its not even impt..as long as he love u..with all his hart..he may not be that perfect...bud he truly love u?

i just hope life will be better for you..bud at the same time..i misses you..and i hope u can come back to my life again..our life..

I miss you like crazzee

2007-06-21T17:06:00.000+08:00

Where art thou ms ong?

2007-06-21T16:19:00.000+08:00

I miss you Ong Bo ling..
So Does Vanggie,maybe alicia

He misses you more than anything

If only....

HartBreak

2007-05-17T21:18:00.001+08:00

It seems that everyone around me have been suffering from hartbreak.

Hope i wont recieve anoder bad news again

I may not feel it bud im getting sick of it

I just hope that those who have just pick up their broken hart,

tell themselves that they will never break somebody elses hart.

Becos they been thru it..and it sucks

Bud wadeva has happened..life still goes on...and eh..people around you still cares for you.

So just chill out..u know..One door closes,the other just open.Gucci got no stock..then take LV..its the same theory..

Still cant get over it?

You can..just keep trying..

Face Down

2007-05-17T21:18:00.000+08:00

FACE DOWN

Hey girl, you know you drive me crazy.

One look puts the rhythm in my head.

Still I'll never understand why you hang around.

I see what's going down.

Cover up with makeup in the mirror,

Tell yourself it's never gonna happen again.

You cry alone and then he swears he loves you

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?

Do you feel better now--she falls to the ground.

Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end

As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect;

Every action in this world will bear a consequence.

If you wait around forever you will surely drown.

I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say you're right again,

Say your right again

Heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?

Do you feel better now? She falls to the ground.

Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end

As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found

Face down in the dirt she said "this doesn't hurt"She said "I've finally had enough"

One day she will tell you that she has had enough.It's coming round again.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?

Do you feel better now? She falls to the ground.

Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end

As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?

Do you feel better now? She falls to the ground.

Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end

As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found

Face down in the dirt she said "this doesn't hurt"She said "I've finally had enough"